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Hey there sc2sea Panda here with a little update from university. It’s fun with the whole new place, new stuff and new people. Finally out of my parents’ iron grip and making some decisions on my own. However, not everything is rainbow and sunshine here :l

It’s Week 13 since I’ve been here. Week 1 was pretty cool and chill. The curriculum here is pretty awesome, the seniors here are cool too and the lecturers are divided into two camps; pretty awesome and pretty boring. Orientation, Freshies’ Night and classes went smooth and were pretty easy going.

Then Week 2. I had no clue what had happened but I had managed to hit a wall. Hard. I was unmotivated and found it hard to sleep. I was even ready to go back into a nasty habit I had; self-harm. It didn’t help during Week 3 someone started spreading rumours that I was crazy. And not in the fun way.

Week 6, lost and a wreck. I found some solace in a person of the opposite sex. Plenty of miscommunication and I got called up by the Dean of Academic affairs. That broke me. I became demotivated, unable to sleep for days on end and was bordering suicide. It didn’t help when there was already a social stigma about me, the other person started telling others about our little mishap and a majority of my course-mates avoiding me like the bubonic plague.

Then I found out there was a small SCII community here. However, they were all pretty new to the game with the exception of one other and myself. We had a few games and then I realised something. Starcraft II was not just a game that I loved. It was something that had always kept me from going over the edge. Not just the game but the community.

With that realisation, I started to make small ventures back into the game. Either one or two ladder games a week or a few practice games with either my clan mates or the people here. I started watching Pro-SCII streams more frequently.

Doing so gave me some positivity to get through the weeks. I even managed to finally get myself to see a professional. The next few weeks were a roller coaster ride of emotions. By Week 10, I had felt confident enough to rejoin the game competitively. I simply just got stomped but it felt good.

Week 11 and I had felt like I had found my stride again. It helped when I found out that not all of my course-mates thought I was what I was said to be. And through the next two weeks I felt like I wasn’t alone and that things might just look up.

Now, up to this point I’ve been playing on my mobile broadband. I never bothered to see if my dormitory internet would hold up to SCII. So, I tried. It can’t. However, it can let me host games and stream to an extent. I didn’t have much to stream. Well, I did. Sc2sea BSG Open #73 and the TN BSG Weekly #2. And those were enjoyable.

Course, I can’t forget about all my clan mates and other SCII buddies. I’ve spoken to them and they have been supportive. Of my troubles and of me coming back. I’ve even spoken to some about me becoming a caster and a BSG mentor.

So, what am I babbling about? Well, this is to serve as an announcement. For two things. One, I’m coming back, if you guys will take me back of course. I know I said I wouldn’t anytime soon but I’d rather be here and sane then not here and insane. Two, you’ll find out soon