[Nvdeth]

Posting this on behalf of deth, who is currently banned:

Hi all, most of you know me as deth from TA. With the SEA CL#2 coming up and in light of recent events and drama in the community, I need to get some things off my chest.


First of all, and this will be confirmed by everyone who knows me, all my clanmates from TA and basically everyone from lans, I am honest to the point of ridiculousness. It gets me in trouble sometimes, but I make no apologies for this. If I don't like someone, I don't pretend to like them and then talk shit behind their back, I tell them I have a problem with them to their face. Sometimes this leads to a resolution of conflict, other times it results in unresolved tension and ongoing bitterness.


I am also overly critical, a trait I openly admit to, which I feel is part of what makes me so successful in my studies and pursuits of Journalism at University. It is also the trait that has made me the player I am today, I cannot cope with mistakes or losing, and my critical nature allows me to examine, dissect and correct mistakes as I see fit.


If I am sorry for something I will apologise. If I am not sorry, I won't apologise. I won't compromise my integrity or be dishonest in order to decieve people into thinking an apology is sincere when I believe and vehemently feel the opposite. That's why I sincerely hope everyone can take this thread and the following comments as open, honest truth, and process my thoughts with an open mind.


The critical and honest aspects of my personality have led me to be banned from this site and from the upcoming SEA CL #2. In the past I have gotten in trouble from admins of this site for disagreeing with their actions, openly criticising their behaviour and arguing relentlessly.


If I have made personal attacks on anyone in this community, not just admins, I apologise. I get heated in the thick of the moment and spout my mouth off in ways I sometimes regret. On the whole, I believe the admins, nirvana inclusive, do a great job of making sure we have ongoing events in the community and provide a localised portal for discussion and activity, without which the scene would certainly not be what it is today. And for the others in the community which make everything happen, you are all awesome for the work you do. Even benji, as much as we have had disagreements in the past, one cannot deny the impressive amount of work he puts into the scene in terms of casting and creating content.


As TA were champions of the original SEACL, I believe I owe it to them to try and make amends. I believe as a community we owe it to the players and the fans to provide the most entertaining environment and quality matches as possible. I believe I have shown highly entertaining games in the past, especially my tvp's against light, tvz's against mafia, pig and glade, and specific tvt series against yyj, RA, rossi, iaguz and many others. I don't feel as though my actions on this site or in the community should result in being excluded from this community wide league. I do not mind taking an exclusion from posting/reputation rights on this site as consequence for my actions, but I feel as though there should be some seperation of punishment between the game itself and community conduct.


I haven't hacked. I haven't cheated. I haven't always been manner but in tournaments and even ladder now, I always gl,hf and gg, no matter what. I give advice to those who want it and ask for it online, even if I have never heard of them or spoken to them before. My conduct in the game I feel is solid. All I want is to be able to play with my team. If I am excluded from this league I feel as though it isn't validated. SEA CL was ran without exclusions, and TA rose to the top and were victorious. Now we have two of our top lineup excluded from the league (myself and pinder), and any results stemming from this league aren't going to be valid.. I think for the players as well, if I was in their shoes I would want everyone to be playing, so a victory felt earned, rather than hollow.


I hope we can come to some sort of agreement here. I believe there should be a seperation between forum privelages and tournaments. Ban people from leagues for hacking and cheating, not disagreeing with staff on completely unrelated matters or using the reputation system.


Again, I wish to iterate that I do believe that the admins of this site do our community a great service, most of the time. I am just blunt, honest and critical of pretty much every mistake; this cannot be easy to deal with and I apologise if you are offended by my actions or personality. I mean nothing personally. I just want esports in sea to take off, have solid events, and more than anything have people watch and support entertaining leagues and watch exciting games.

Quick Comments

	TACosmic:	An honest post from a superstar of the scene. Deth fighting!
	NvRossi:	blunt, frank, honest and to the point! Love it
	Maynarde:	I see honesty and compromise here, good post deth.
	Apth:	Sincerity should be rewarded.