[ShinyA]

EDIT -

When I first made this thread, I honestly didn't really remember being such an asshole to people. I haven't played on SEA or really had anything to do with the community or it's players in over a year. In the past couple of days however I was invited to play a few games of DotA with some of the SEA players, it sounded like fun so I hopped on the TS server that they used and we had a blast! It was maybe the most fun I had had online in a while.

While on the TS server though it came to my attention that I was legitimately hated by a lot of the SEA players that I had encountered during the time that I had been actively playing on SEA. I was completely shocked and caught off guard by it because I had no idea that these people that I hadn't really thought much of in a year had such serious hatred towards me! I didn't really remember specifically being an asshole and I was pretty dumbfounded.

I made this thread in hopes of figuring things out and hopefully resolving the issues that people had with me. Well, only one of those things has completely happened and it isn't the latter! I remember the dumb things that I've done and said, the people I've insulted, and the possible bridges that I have burned. I'm sincerely sorry to anyone affected by the idiotic things that I've made them put up with in the past. I've always had a problem with my ego and attitude, it's gotten me into trouble in the past and it's something I continue to work on every day. I'm not the same person I was a year ago, even though I'm not a kid I know I have immature tendencies and they often get the better of me.

It's okay if no one forgives me but do know that I'm sorry and do seek your forgiveness. If put in the same situations that I was in when acting like an idiot in the past I promise you I would behave differently. I took losing way too hard in the past and it caused me to lash out. I'm embarrassed for myself thinking back on the stupid things I've done.

I'm sorry, if given the chance I'd like to make it up to all of you!