I've recently decided that I'm transsexual, and am comfortable enough with that idea to want to start transitioning my life between genders soon.
I've been dealing with complex feelings over my personal identity for several months now. Having these internal struggles has hurt me in a number of ways, such as making it harder for me to generate motivation to do things, making it harder for me to focus on things that I perceived as "unimportant" (regardless of their actual importance), and causing stress and anxiety through the disconnect between how people treat me (and assume i want to be treated) and how I actually want to be treated. These things have been negatively affecting my happiness for some time, especially since I decided I was transsexual. It's frustrating to want things to change but be too anxious to speak out loud enough to change them.
Since accepting myself as I am and beginning to come out to more and more people I've been getting progressively happier. I hope by coming out to you that I can continue to reduce my problems and become happier with myself. I hope you can accept me as I do. However, if you don't because of your personal beliefs related to me or gender then I'll respect your beliefs and won't try to change your mind.
If you're willing, I would appreciate it if you would begin to refer to me with feminine pronouns (she/her instead of he/his/him) from now on. If any of you want to talk to me personally or ask questions which are not very befitting of a forum setting you are free to contact me on skype (REMOVED). I would to like to believe that I'm fairly easy to talk to on skype, but maybe I'm wrong.
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Thanks for reading and for any thoughts and/or opinions you may provide ~~!
I feel I should write something but not really sure what, I'm happy for you for having the bravery to be open with everyone about it, so I hope everything goes well carry on mam
Thanks for the supportive responses everyone O_O I really appreciate them .
In response to the SC questions: I don't plan to play in any tournament for the remainder of WoL, so I'm playing it pretty casually for now. Two of my LighT teammates are going to UW (University of Washington) and playing in CSL, so I'm helping them train the UW team for the CSL finals in mid-February. After that I'll probably stop playing SC2 until HotS comes out (a month), but then I'll try to get serious with HotS again. Hopefully I can get better with less external things going on in my life and become a more interesting player to follow. I'd like to play in WCS again this year (if it happens? I haven't been paying attention to tournament planning).
Not saying transition will be easy, but you sure have it a lot more easier because you are pretty enough to be successful/attractive regardless what gender role you take on.
I wish you all the best too, it takes huge courage to do this and I think everyone should be proud of who they are, but at the same time to be humble enough to realise everyones different and everyone matters.
What you are doing is a huge step and I really hope you get nothing but support and encouragement for this, this is one of the biggest decisions you can make in life and everyone should support you in that. Loads of respect from me for doing it so publicly.
On a side note, I really cant wait to see you play in HotS again, the games at WCS were so entertaining
I have a family friend who has also recently realised he is transsexual, and is going through a similar process. His family, being a stereotypical christian family, were not at all pleased, and have since been arguing amongst themselves as they try to change his mind. I'm not sure what your situation is, but I am certain that if you are happy and comfortable with what you are doing, it is the right choice. I wish you the best of luck. Recently, I have been going through some tough times myself with an upcoming operation and family issues. Whilst these situations are in no way similar, I understand how hard everyday life can be. If ever you need to talk to someone, because everything becomes too much, feel free to send me a message. You can only go up from here my friend. Best of luck.
I don't know you personally Tilea, but I have to give you a huge congratulations on sticking with your convictions regardless of what others say.
Courage is infectious, so you're not just standing up for yourself, but all those like you in the scene who may be having a hard time being accepted or open about their true self.
I have a lot of respect for anyone who has the courage to do as you've done, and I wish you luck and success in all your future challenges and goals.
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