I think it's safe to say that my absence from the BSG and GPD Open has greatly hindered them and possibly offended some.
To all, I apologise.
In the recent weeks, I had isolated myself in a bid to 'fix' my problems. It ended poorly with me ending up in the hospital.
I was only allowed 30 minutes every now and then to access the net and it was always monitored. Only recently, was I allowed to go back to my 'normal' life. (*sarcastic laugh;hahaha*)
I am glad that some how the rest of the admin team for the BSG has stepped up to the plate and no doubt some of the higher ups and big guns within our community have helped them out. To all, thank you.
With that said, I am sorry to announce my sudden withdrawal as an admin and possibly from the community. My 'problems' have spiraled to a point where they just control everything. The pressure of school is also starting to get to me.
I should probably man up and just push it all aside. But this community deserves better. I hope someone does do better cause I did not give it my best. This community deserves it. Always will.
This community was the only thing that probably kept me from going off the rails. A small light in the dark. I'll miss this but I don't think I can keep up anymore. Not without 'fixing' myself first.
Thanks for the memories everyone.
I'll see you when I see you.
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NA - ThePandarine.180 :: SEA - ThePandarine.180
Proud to be Nunquam redono, nunquam deditionem
Panda!!!! Get better soon ;(
#believe that things can and will get better
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"and we'll invest more on Bots, as our first Trial bot, the 'NemBotElie' was a huge success, organising tournaments and being part of the Council of mGG. But there are a few bugs in which the bot cannot go past the skill level of a Platinum Protoss." - PaRAnorMaL
It's terrible to hear that you are going through some tough times, I hope that you are getting all the assistance you need, both professionally and from us hear in sc2sea. GL HF and stay well!
"I should probably man up and just push it all aside" This is never the answer (except you know, zombie apocalypses and stuff, in those situations repress as hard as you can.) Look after yourself first man, this community owes you not the other way around.
It is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you will not be imperiled in a hundred battles; if you do not know your enemies but do know yourself, you will win one and lose one; if you do not know your enemies nor yourself, you will be imperiled in every single battle.
Sun Tzu 孫子
"If storm finishes I survive, otherwise terran is op" xGKingDelete 2012
These problems tend to be less when we find something that can push them out of the way naturally. Maybe SC2 isn't the right way to go at this point. But don't stop searching.
Panda your an awesome guy and i can relate to sc2sea being that Light house in the vast empty storm. Push through it man !!! just keep sailing and find the harbor. We love you man and you have done a lot when there was no one else doing the BSG and GPD you came in and started them back up. In your honor i try to find someone to help me with the GPD community and continue it on for you man !
Panda, you're quite possibly one of the nicest people I have talked to one this site man.
I can only hope you get "better" and lead a healthy and successful life soon mate.
On a side note, I've been through a lot of what I think you might be talking about, so if you're ever wanting to maybe talk to someone, don't hesitate to message me on Skype! Even if it's 4am or something ridiculous!
I'm sure that goes for many other people too, we all want to see you get "better" man. And on behalf of AxS' BSG+PD I would like to thank you for your time as an admin, even with everything going on, you stuck through it and delivered time after time.
As mentioned way before (several occasions), I do not mind managing the GPD open. However if Wolf is managing both, then all the best.
But most importantly... panda get better soon
EDIT : No bm or misunderstandings intended; if any, it's probably due to bad wording from me
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"and we'll invest more on Bots, as our first Trial bot, the 'NemBotElie' was a huge success, organising tournaments and being part of the Council of mGG. But there are a few bugs in which the bot cannot go past the skill level of a Platinum Protoss." - PaRAnorMaL
You've given the community so much of yourself over the past few years man. You are an outstanding member of and Sc2sea, always so positive and full of life and energy whenever you are around.
I am probably saying much of the same thing, but whenever you need someone to talk to, you know that I, no not just me, many of the sc2sea and ToR community would make time for you Owen.
I think that I have said it before, but I feel that I should say this again - I admire you for how strong, independent and positive you are, so stay strong brother.
You are an inspirational guy. You've given sooo much for this community and never asked for anything in return. You have my utmost respect and I wish you all the best in sorting out what is holding you back in life. Remember, there is always light at the end of the tunnel, downhill journey is easier than the uphill and many, many people here that care about you.
If there is ever anything I can do, don't hesitate to ask me mate.
Met you IRL before at IEM and you're a fine guy. Hope you can get everything together and pull through this season of your life! Always be positive, and as so many people above me have said already, if anything that we can help, we'll do our best. I'm just one checkpoint away from you!
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