I didn't really wanna sit here and think how best to start writing this thing. I'm not a writer, I'm a dude who sees something that is broken and hits it with a hammer until it's fixed. So on that note I am stepping down from the majority of mGG leadership responsibilities. Asra and myself will still be around in much the same capacity as Thoth and Muex, to advise when requested and to run things when needed. But for the most part I'll just be another bloke around the place with no special responsibilities.
I had always planned to consider whether I would hang around after SEANA concluded anyway. And I always kinda assumed that I would still be around to make sure that SEANA 2 was bigger money, bigger players and an even bigger success. But at this point in time I don't have the heart for SC2, I don't represent what an mGG leader should represent and I'm not entirely sure I represent even what an mGG member should represent. In the vast majority of ways I am proud of the past 18+ months that I have been involved with running mGG alongside Alpha and Nem. All told we have some massive things to be proud of. A 9 clanwar winning streak, players into ACL groups, players in sponsored teams and an international tournament that clocked thousands of unique viewers and got mentioned by casters of both WCS and MLG ("Oh, I saw Puck/Polt play some sick games on the weekend during this little thing called SEANA").
But I also know there were many things I didn't handle properly. When ViBe got pissed at how long SEANA was taking, telling him to suck it up might not have been the best move ever. On the other hand we told everyone the bracket format so he should have known. 50/50 on that one. There was supposed to be an awesome write up after SEANA as well, and there was half of one, but I never got around to finishing it. At that point it was so heavily (and unconsciously) NA biased I couldn't in good conscience post it. So it never ended up getting done at all.
But mostly my regrets surround my failures in properly being a LEADER of mGG. To me a leader knows everyone under his wing's name and all their hopes and fears. He should be sitting down with them every night and talking to them, watching them play. Helping if able. And that is not something I have done to my satisfaction this year at all. I'm sure there are probably a few members who don't even know I'm meant to be a leader and perhaps haven't ever spoken with me since joining. I regret that we used to have the tightest knit divisions of any clan The mGG BSGs of 2012 were amazing. We would train together every night, go into every clan war knowing the result of each round before it happened because we were so in tune with each other. But then promotions come into it and certainly mGG BSG has never stopped being great, but never have we been as close either (But Vortex, Shade, Brax, Irish, Abyssal, and the list goes on, have such as bright future ahead if they maintain their current closeness).
Probably the final straw was Light's blog noting how isolated and alone he had felt. A member of my own clan coming out like that, I knew some pretty big failures had occurred somewhere along the line. These are the kinds of things that don't happen on my watch. Because I'm a perfectionist and I always get the job done. Except I haven't been doing that lately. So it's time for a change.
Nem has been with us since forever now. Slowly taking on more and more responsibility and I think one of, if not the, most enthusiastic mGGers we have. I would ask that Nirv take my "Leader of mGG" tag and pass it on to her *sniff*, as well as directing the recruitment applications to her (and still Alpha ofc) instead of me. I am certainly more proud than disappointed in my time as a leader, but there are other people with bigger hearts and more commitment than me, and they deserve the opportunity to steer.
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Goodbye my PHD wielding zerg friend.
It's good that you know when to put real life ahead, in the end that's what matters. It sucks that you have lost your passion but there is nothing you can do about that, it just happens.
Without you and Asra, mGG would of taken a different path and wouldn't be what it is now not to mention the work Asra put into BSG. I haven't spoken to Asra as much as Goose but I still wish you both the best
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Originally Posted by mGGCyclone
Without you and Asra, mGG would of taken a different path and wouldn't be what it is now not to mention the work Asra put into BSG. I haven't spoken to Asra as much as Goose but I still wish you both the best
I'm sure Asrathiel's heart-eating squirrels are still around lurking
I miss both of them already :'(
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Hats off and thanks for the time and effort put in DrGooSe.
I personally never had the chance to get to know you much at all but I watched the mGG start out and helped promote the community side of the clan week in and week out with CwnAnnwn and MueX on the abandoned sea bnet forums. The clan helped create the nicer attitude to SC2 Sea seems to have as apposed to NA. I only recently joined but mGG is great bunch of people that has obviously come together though years of smart & hard work and just having fun.
To the future and it's obvious to anyone in the know that there are no better hands that this clan could fall into than the hands of Nemesis. mGG Fighting!!!
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Waayyy too hard on yourself.
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To me a leader knows everyone under his wing's name and all their hopes and fears. He should be sitting down with them every night and talking to them, watching them play. Helping if able. And that is not something I have done to my satisfaction this year at all. I'm sure there are probably a few members who don't even know I'm meant to be a leader and perhaps haven't ever spoken with me since joining.
No offence, but IMO this is bullshit. It's impossible to be like this with a ~20 person clan, let alone something as massive as mGG. You should be incredibly proud of what mGG has become. Everyone goes through times they aren't as active in the game or the clan as they would like to be in a perfect world. It's a testament to you and the of the rest of mGG's leadership's ability that it keeps going without you micromanaging it.
I get annoyed when I stuff up... maybe I let someone join who ends up not fitting in. Maybe a clanwar isn't organised as smoothly as I'd like. But the proudest moments are when shit like that almost happens, and I don't have to deal with it because of the people I have around me.
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Sad to see you go, but even when leaving you've done right by us and chosen an excellent person to fill the void.
Stick around on skype and stuff, happy to have a chat. Best of luck for everything
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I know where you are coming from
I made mistakes leading FaDe and I hurt feelings in the best interest of clan and team
I certainly know the frustration to have a small tight knit group and then having the clan expand to the point where you see cliques forming within and you don't know or talk to all the members
I don't think you should have packed it in and you could have adapted and that is possibly where you went wrong. Not telling off a guy or not finishing a write up but not adapting the different manner in which you lead a larger group of people
Anyway sad to see you step down. Had a lot of respect for mGG
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Awww I am going to miss you and Asra heaps! even though I'll be going very soon as well, atleast I can still annoy you via fb
Thanks for all the times you've supported me as a player and as a human being, you've definitely got great leader qualities, even though you may not see what we do, being that you helped push little mGG so far along as to have it's very own pro tournament and have MLG level players (even the winner Polt) taking part and playing in it.
You may feel like you have let down some as you mention about Light's blog and the mGG BSG, but you've given me, as well as many others, a family and home in this scene. As the 2012 mGG P/D graduated into the 2013 M/GM it is today we've grown close to the point where I look forward to logging on after school and yelling and bitching at Probe while Nem tries to settle us down. Or there's even been times where benelings and fender have helped me develop my guitar playing and with their help I'm posting videos of my guitar playing on facebook (got 84 likes one one video woooooo) where 2 years ago I was very shy and clanless (which is the complete opposite of me now haha) Don't feel like you've let your clanmates down, because for every small bad thing that's occured there has been 100s of good ones that you are and are not aware of that had happened in the clan.
You're very successful not only in the big and scary real life out there, but also in growing our clan into what it is today, ordering us shirts and supporting us as well as the scene for the better part of almost 2 years.
You are also successful in my heart
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You're only one fella mate, you can't do everything! I'm sure everyone appreciates everything you've done and the highest expectations are coming from within. We all want to do more, but we only have so much time and energy available. Don't let it get you down! Keep at it.
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Joke: Goose was a terribad leader and didn't help me at all. I'm still silver thanks to him.....What a joke.
Goose was really supportive when I was going through a terribad time at the start of the year (not only ingame but also irl). He is a constant presence in the skype channel and extremely helpful. His departure will leave a void in mGG that will be difficult to fill.
Though I think it is one of his wisest decisions to put Nemesis up as leader. She is fantastic, friendly and helpful (though I'm still Silver Protoss (Thanks for nothing Nem!).
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