I have a lot of respect for you - I know it isn't easy expressing yourself fully and sharing your aspirations ♥
If there is one thing I can share from personal experience which may be of benefit to you it is this: When you share your dreams and aspirations with people, it completely alters how they view you.
A prime example is my parents. I spend a lot of time on the computer both for work but predominantly for gaming/esports. They used to think I just sat in front of the computer "wasting time" and avoiding doing work. This was definitely not what I was doing. I was networking with people in the esport industry, learning about the scene and working towards my dreams of running the biggest esports event in the world - and still continue to do so today.
When I shared with them what I was doing on the computer but more importantly WHY I was doing it and what it both meant to me and also what my long term visions were - it completely altered their view of what I do.
This situation could be transferred to close friends, work colleagues - anybody who is involved in your life. If you want to succeed in your dreams, you have to have a support base around you. The only way to have that - is to share it with as many people as you can who are willing to listen.
All the best with your endeavors - I look forward to seeing your growth.
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