[Baldie]

I was at work today putting in member applications.. and there was a lady by the name of "Ms. Gay Hancock".

WHO DOES THAT TO THEIR CHILD?!

On the topic of love, long story short.

• I liked a girl in year 10 but was too scared to say
• I was too scared to admit I liked her and start a relationship because I was petrified I would do something wrong and lose her so I lied and said I didn't like her in that way
• I break my own heart knowing I could have had something

Fast forward 4 years

• After not talking much for two years since completing school I arrange to meet with her for dinner
• Start to see each other more often
• Realise my feelings for her never really went so I explain the whole situation
• She admits she liked me back then too (GOOD ONE BRAD ******* IDIOT)
• We become friends again

Fast forward 1 year

• After keeping in regular contact she considers me the brother she never had
• I still like her but accept she must be happy with who she is with

I guess unlike a lot of first loves, I've managed to keep a friendship alive through being open and honest and she is without a doubt my closest friend. If I had a relationship with her in year 10 I have no doubt I wouldn't be with her today. Simply because over the years I have changed from being a shy, withheld and scared boy into an outgoing, open and caring man. So I guess at least I haven't blown that chance LOL.

I've never had a girlfriend so I guess I don't yearn for the feeling given I have never experienced it. It's arguably the single area in my life I have no power in/feeling of fulfillment. My brother is getting married to the first girl he had a relationship with after being together for 4 years, so I take a lot from him. I'd rather get married to the first woman I have a relationship with than be single after being with 30.

Quick Comments

	Cyanide:	bro-zoned? :S
	nirvAnA:	I think many gamers can relate to your story!